I wish not

I am not going to wish he was here.
If I wish for it means that it could be possible and it is not. He will not be here with me, and he is not going to spend this lovely day by my side.
I don’t want to pretend and wish for all that bullshit. Cause if I am not willing to make it happen then that’s all it is.
I shouldn’t be filling my mind and heart with irrational thoughts, it’s dangerous and painful.

to you

Between hate and love there is a very fine line, we as a particular couple, always dancing in that tightrope.

We cannot rewrite what is already written, just as we cannot rewrite the stars. The past is in the past, every memorie, kiss, hug, feeling, tear, smile, word belongs only to us.

Even today I still hear you in the songs I listen, and I still hide you in the words I write. I hate it, I hate it as much as you do, believe me, and it angers me enough to feel my blood boil. I feel like it is imposible to not love you and miss you, you were my love, my darling, my soulmate, my home… Now I feel like I don’t belong, lost.

But the hurt and the anger transformed into experience and courage. Just like yourself I would not change who I am today.

I thank you for being my first in many things and for teaching me so many stuff about me, about humans and about love and hate.

I don’t belong to you and you don’t belong to me. Yet we decided to give a piece of each other to one another.

LCA 2018

Explicación de frases

Cuando me pierdo en tu mirada, descubro tus intenciones y escucho tus palabras hipócritas; veo en el reflejo de tus ojos la silueta de un pobre enamorado.

Esta frase se la dedico a la gente que se enamora muy rápido… déjame decirte: no es posible, uno no puede enamorarse y amar a otra persona así de rápido. Te enamoras de lo que vez, de lo que tus ojos te proveen, de lo que tus manos sienten. Hipócritas. No sienten cariño por nadie, solo quieren ver y sentir, ambos aún mejor si son en silencio, en secreto en la silueta de la oscuridad. Mi consejo, no engañen a nadie, digan lo que quieren y acepten las consecuencias, algunas veces serán buenas otras no tanto…

lost

why
why do i still feel your touch when my soul stretches to reach for love
i want your soul to feel like home to mine like that day
why do i still think about you with a warmth in my heart
i wanna be swoon by your presence
why do i still fell myself wanting to fall
i wanna fall so you can catch me

since that day i feel lost, i lost my love, i lost my sense, i lost my home.

LCA 2018